Well I was on a roll

I exercised for 4 days straight and even when I was running I rarely did it for days straight. But last week I didn't exercise at all because I was sick the whole week. At first it was light flu like symptoms and I did what was necessary and then got in bed. The end of the week was strange nausea and I tried to get up to work out at the church and I gave up after 10 minutes of trying to get ready. So last week sucked but I am determined to get right back up and keep going. I worked out this morning at the church and I'm sure I'm going to be sore tomorrow.

I would really like to start running again but the only thing I'm worried about is people and dogs. I'm nervous about who I am going to run into on the street. I really want to go back to BC stadium and run the track. Maybe I'll try that as soon as preschool is out.
I keep looking back at the times when I could have just kept on the right track I was on and I wouldn't be like how I am today. But I can't look at the past, the only thing I can change is now and what I continue to do. I need to get a scale, like yesterday.

Getting back to exercising

Even though my eating is about the same, I have tried harder to work out. I started working out last Thursday with a group of friends and from now on we will be working out Tuesdays and Thursdays. It feels good to work out with others and one of them is an aerobics instructor and she is awesome. I know I'm not going to skip a workout knowing they are there. I also was feeling a little down a couple of weeks ago and Jesús and I agreed that we needed to try a new work out video. I got the Jillian Michaels Ultimate workout for Christmas but it didn't give me the workout I needed so we got this new one recommended by a good friend. I have used it twice this week, Monday and Wednesday, the days I'm on my own to work out and it gives me a great work out. You work with resistance bands and it has a heart monitor. It tells you how many calories you have burned and how long you've worked out. So far I'm loving the new Wii work out and I hope I can keep it up. If I work out on my own Monday Wednesday and Friday and go with friends on Tuesdays and Thursdays and maybe go for a jog Saturday mornings then I think I will be on my way.

Next up: work on eating

Disappointment

I've been a little scared to get back to this blog lately. Mostly because I am depressed and disappointed in myself, because after all my hard work last summer, I am sure I have gained back all the weight, and I can barely run a full mile without wanting to drop dead. I eat non stop and I hate myself all the time because of it. I'm ashamed that I let all that hard work go right down the crapper. I'm too afraid to get back on a scale. I have no time to exercise. Even though I don't really buy fattening foods I eat everything I see. I got rid of all my fat clothes so now I have nothing to wear. When I finally get the guts to get back on a scale and post it maybe that will finally be me breaking through this barrier and my start back to a healthier me. Till then.....

Getting my run on

I am finally up to 3.17 miles and it feels good. The heat is making it hard to run so this week has been a tough one with only one running day so far but it will be cooling down and I will be hitting the streets again. Wanna join me?

A few failures and a triumph

I have been trying new recipes for a while but I hit a slump with some bad ones. They were really bland and needed something added to them. I plan on trying them again before I put them up. But tonight was a good one.It is called South Pacific Shrimp and you can find the recipe here. The only thing I did differently is instead of peppers I added some japanese hot sauce and still tasted very good. It actually reminded me of a meal that my sister brought back from Thailand for me. All the seasoning was packaged and all I had to do was buy coconut milk and chicken and some eggplant. We put it over rice, I prefer brown rice but we didnt have enough so we put it over white rice. Very good.

On the Running Front

I ran 2.83 miles last week. My goal is 3 miles and I am so close. Unfortunately I got pretty sick this week and am still getting my strength back so I had not run since last Wednesday. Today my dear friend and cheerleader Trish got me to run two miles. It was hard since it had been over a week but I finished the two miles and now its time to get to 3. Hopefully by the end of next week. Run run run!

Finally I'm not overweight

I weighed myself on the Wii this morning. I'm wondering how accurate it is. But I did it twice and it was only a few ounces off. So according to the Wii I am now 154 and I am no longer in the overweight category. I have been running at BC Stadium and I finally ran a mile last week. I also run/walk the stairs. I actually felt like I was gaining weight each week and I thought that couldn't be possible since I was exercising so much. I wasn't eating great but it wasn't extreme. I think I was just retaining water or something. I hiked somewhere around 11 miles in the mountains this week and hopefully that helped too. Hopefully I can keep this up and improve my eating and the rest of the weight will just melt off. I also need to work on toning. I registered for the Volkslauf so I have a goal I have to reach by Oct 2nd. I have to be able to run 3 miles. I also have to be strong enough to pull myself over those 10 ft. walls. We'll see.