Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Getting back to exercising

Even though my eating is about the same, I have tried harder to work out. I started working out last Thursday with a group of friends and from now on we will be working out Tuesdays and Thursdays. It feels good to work out with others and one of them is an aerobics instructor and she is awesome. I know I'm not going to skip a workout knowing they are there. I also was feeling a little down a couple of weeks ago and Jesús and I agreed that we needed to try a new work out video. I got the Jillian Michaels Ultimate workout for Christmas but it didn't give me the workout I needed so we got this new one recommended by a good friend. I have used it twice this week, Monday and Wednesday, the days I'm on my own to work out and it gives me a great work out. You work with resistance bands and it has a heart monitor. It tells you how many calories you have burned and how long you've worked out. So far I'm loving the new Wii work out and I hope I can keep it up. If I work out on my own Monday Wednesday and Friday and go with friends on Tuesdays and Thursdays and maybe go for a jog Saturday mornings then I think I will be on my way.
Next up: work on eating

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Disappointment

I've been a little scared to get back to this blog lately. Mostly because I am depressed and disappointed in myself, because after all my hard work last summer, I am sure I have gained back all the weight, and I can barely run a full mile without wanting to drop dead. I eat non stop and I hate myself all the time because of it. I'm ashamed that I let all that hard work go right down the crapper. I'm too afraid to get back on a scale. I have no time to exercise. Even though I don't really buy fattening foods I eat everything I see. I got rid of all my fat clothes so now I have nothing to wear. When I finally get the guts to get back on a scale and post it maybe that will finally be me breaking through this barrier and my start back to a healthier me. Till then.....